Wake up, wake up!!! it's a bad dream, I kept telling my self as we I started throwing important things in suitcases ,I felt a chill running down my spine ,I hate to admit it but at some point I actually pinched myself, you know like in movies, but it didn't work!!!
I couldn't believe it this is actually happening, I'll never see my home again, the very long garage the beautiful garden, the gigantic kitchen, no more Friday family lunches, no more rat hunting, no more waking up angry because the cats in the back yard decided to make babies right under my bed room window, how can I leave and I never really found out whats Mr. freaky neighbour on the balcony's story? or does the neighbours dog bark at night because of all the monsters in the backyards bathroom? will the trees in my garden ever form a green roof? will the couple who's conversations I heard all the time on my radio ever get married? silly questions I know but I really wanted to have answers, no time for that we need to harry up and leave as soon as possible, Layth is coming home from work and the minute he's here we're leaving.
A group of gangsters were going around the neighbourhood with load speakers saying that if Shiite (my people) don't leave all the men in their families will be dead, they didn't even call us Shiite they called us Rfidha which translates to the refusers!!! those who refuse to follow the right path, outlaws, intruders to society, rebellions, you name it. I was furious because once again my entire existence is being controlled by a group of ignorant, savage, heartless strangers, did I do something wrong to deserve this? or is it just a test from God?may be!!!
We started putting things in the car i don't remember saying anything to anyone or having anyone say anything to me, too many things were running through my mind and I can only imagine how Mom and Layth felt. All the basic needs are packed, some clothes, money, expensive things all is there thrown randomly in the back of the car, doors are are locked, this is it, take a final look for you might never see it again, it felt like a huge rock was thrown against my chest, I'm choking, i can't breath, must be strong!! I took a deep breath and said "Alhamdulilah (thank god) for everything", i turned around, got into the car and then came Khala Bano (my neighbour) "whats going on", she said "well you see we're leaving", said mom and they both started crying, tears started running down my cheeks I couldn't take it anymore, I'm not as strong as I thought I was! as she was holding me "take care of your mom" she said, kissed me and waved good bye as the car slowly moved away, the beautiful street, the neon lights my brother and his friend put on every single house entrance, things I probably will never see but definitely will miss.
Good bye house, good bye street, good bye Khala Bano, good bye life, unknown scary future here I come...
I couldn't believe it this is actually happening, I'll never see my home again, the very long garage the beautiful garden, the gigantic kitchen, no more Friday family lunches, no more rat hunting, no more waking up angry because the cats in the back yard decided to make babies right under my bed room window, how can I leave and I never really found out whats Mr. freaky neighbour on the balcony's story? or does the neighbours dog bark at night because of all the monsters in the backyards bathroom? will the trees in my garden ever form a green roof? will the couple who's conversations I heard all the time on my radio ever get married? silly questions I know but I really wanted to have answers, no time for that we need to harry up and leave as soon as possible, Layth is coming home from work and the minute he's here we're leaving.
A group of gangsters were going around the neighbourhood with load speakers saying that if Shiite (my people) don't leave all the men in their families will be dead, they didn't even call us Shiite they called us Rfidha which translates to the refusers!!! those who refuse to follow the right path, outlaws, intruders to society, rebellions, you name it. I was furious because once again my entire existence is being controlled by a group of ignorant, savage, heartless strangers, did I do something wrong to deserve this? or is it just a test from God?may be!!!
We started putting things in the car i don't remember saying anything to anyone or having anyone say anything to me, too many things were running through my mind and I can only imagine how Mom and Layth felt. All the basic needs are packed, some clothes, money, expensive things all is there thrown randomly in the back of the car, doors are are locked, this is it, take a final look for you might never see it again, it felt like a huge rock was thrown against my chest, I'm choking, i can't breath, must be strong!! I took a deep breath and said "Alhamdulilah (thank god) for everything", i turned around, got into the car and then came Khala Bano (my neighbour) "whats going on", she said "well you see we're leaving", said mom and they both started crying, tears started running down my cheeks I couldn't take it anymore, I'm not as strong as I thought I was! as she was holding me "take care of your mom" she said, kissed me and waved good bye as the car slowly moved away, the beautiful street, the neon lights my brother and his friend put on every single house entrance, things I probably will never see but definitely will miss.
Good bye house, good bye street, good bye Khala Bano, good bye life, unknown scary future here I come...
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